A New Challenge to Face

 

Ever since I started feeling completely healthy again, I found that I struggle with something completely different now. I have been struggling with making myself rest and taking days to relax. Now that my body doesn't force me to rest often, I have been pushing harder lately. My thoughts were, "Now that I'm feeling well and healthy again, I have no excuse to be lazy!" 

So, I have been working, practicing my music, cleaning, cooking, and exercising all day every day. I feel guilty about taking a day or taking some time to rest now that I feel well. I shouldn't be lazy if there's things that need to be done, right? After a few weeks of not taking a day to rest, I finally hit a wall on Sunday earlier this week and came crashing back down. I took the evening to rest and take care of myself and felt better. I definitely don't need as much rest as I used to, to bounce back. It is strange though having to be conscious of taking breaks and time to rest after so long of my body just forcing me to rest frequently. 

My new challenge has been finding a balance of doing more work than I used to because I feel well while also finding a good amount of time to rest without feeling guilty. I usually try to do everything that needs to be done before I rest, but there's really no end to what could or needs to be done. This is just something I need to work on. Adjusting to being a healthy person again! I'm thinking about taking Sundays to rest. After church, just forcing myself to do nothing tiring. So, I will try that this weekend and see how it goes.